“And if we want to experience that aliveness, we cannot keep waiting for things to change, for everything to be just right…Only when you decide that you’re really going to do something differently, and follow through with the implementation of those plans, will things begin to change…”
—Sarah Susanka, The Not So Big Life: Making Room for What Really Matters
I’m no longer willing to defer my life. It’s as if the Universe has said, “Have I got a deal for you! Take it or leave it.”
Thanks to reading Susanka’s book, and good coaching from Karen Ross of Karen Ross Coaching, I’m seeing my life through new eyes. I had to make some painful decisions, but the weight that had been on my shoulders has lifted.
I felt weighted down with commitments and obligations and was experiencing a number of minor health issues that seemed to hit all at the same time.
Karen could see that the exhaustion I expressed, and perhaps even the health concerns, might be related to my intentions—the ones I wasn’t honoring. Hadn’t I set an intention to get my manuscript completed this year? Is that what I really wanted? And was I really working at getting healthy?
She helped me clearly express my intentions and my values, then had me make a list of everything I was doing/involved in. Holy moly the list was long.
We went through the list and I started letting go. That was the painful part, because I love the boards and committees I’m on, the retreats I facilitate and the groups I’m in. But she, in Susanka’s terms, “helped me to understand my own value and what I’m accomplishing through the living of my life” now at this point in time.
And right now, ladies and gentlemen, that’s my memoir and my health.
Once Karen cracked me open, there was no stopping the flow. The Universe provided me with one synchronicity after another. As Susanka says, “I didn’t go looking for answers; I simply engaged what arrived on my doorstep, and everything I needed seemed to flow out of those engagements.”
Which meant I was in the moment, seeing what each synchronicity had to teach me.
And now there’s no turning back. I cannot abandon my Self.
I value my health and my writing. Every day.
How about you? What is weighing you down and keeping you from honoring your intentions for this year? For your life?
